i think i've a problem with myself.
I'm feeling so emotional now.
I've no idea why.
Too many things are in my mind.
I'm suppressing them all.
I just want to go out to breathe some fresh air.

my thoughts

At this B.F season, i am patiently waiting for financial miracles to happen. It was not easy. I face some frustrations & anxiety but i've to keep confessing that God is my provider & HE is a rich God. Thank God that things are improving in my work. My mindset is different from what was used to be. My mindset is now more open & has a higher level of thinking. Thank God for those people who mould me & help me. One of the best persons that i want to thank is none other than my fiance. My life is so much better ever since we are together.

Currently, i'm saving up for certain important events. There are so many things i wish to buy but i can't. Not even a good haircut i'm yearning for. Frankly, i was a little frustrated but i'm kinda numb to it already. Whenever i'm feeling frustrated & stressed, i just pray to God to take all these anxieties away. There are some uncertainy in my mind right now. Ha i can do nothing but only ask HIM for wisdom to guide me.

Also, i'm not satisfied what i'm getting now. I want more!

I love hanging out with my Beloved!

I just came back from Jurong Point. It was really fun hanging out with my dearest Benjamin. We had dinner, massage,window shopping & supper! We also share alot of joy & jokes! We met each other 6 times this week! Man...alot, isn't it?! He was really a super awesome man to be with! I'm never bored being with him....we have so much to communicate & do things together, especially food! We always hunt for good food around & discuss about them...I'm really glad our relationship is getting stronger. Our love for each other really grow each day! This is what we want to see in our marriage next time...to continue to pursue each other. Guys, i have heard people often said only courtship time is the sweetest, not marriage but the fact is you can have a choice to change your marriage into a sweet one if you really want to. Your wife or husband is important & he or she is worth it! My beloved Benjamin, i just want to let you know that 'YOU ARE MORE WORTH THAN ANY TREASURE ON EARTH. PRECIOUS STONES & DIAMOND MAY COST THOUSANDS & MILLIONS BUT YOU ARE EVEN MORE VALUABLE THAN ANY OF THESE.'

I think i'm not happy & satisfied with myself.
Whenever i see pictures of very pretty ladies, i feel so inadequate & ugly.
I just wish so badly i want to be like them, having such photogenic & sharp features.
Honestly, i don't really my face shape. It makes me appear really big.
I wish i can have a good figure, 35-25-36.
I think that will be good enough for me.
I envy those ladies who look really good overall.
I also want to travel out of Singapore by air.
I've never taken by air!
I'm super jealous!
I'm so moody because of all these!
Hence i decided to pour all my feelings into it!

A Valentine's Day Msg Just for my Beloved...

Time flies.
It's been more than a year since we first dated.
Knowing you is one of the greatest gift that i ever received.
Hanging out with you is so fun.
We share some common interest together.
You are so patient and caring towards me.
Your gentleness & faithfulness have touched my heart.
You listen to me whenever i need a listening ear.
You hug me whenever i need a crying shoulder.
You teach me the right values in life that i should learn to cultivate.
Being with you does make me a better person.
Though we have arguments & disagreements, you quickly resolve it &
make it better the next day.
You always show me your 5 love languages.
I remember you bought ginseng for me because i'm often fatigue & sick.
Your sacrifices and unconditional love have shown me how much you treasure me.
I'm moved by all your efforts.
I'm sorry that i've took you for granted at times
Still you are so forgiving & showing concern for me...
Thanks for all your beautiful love, my dearest...
Happy Valentine's Day....

Happy Valentine's Day 2009

My beloved benjamin brought me to a Nonya Cafe for a buffet lunch!
It's not just the food, it is also accompanied by a bouquet of flowers!
9 roses...i wonder what do they indicate???

Looks ordinary but the meat are delicious!
It is a kind of organ soup...scary huh??? No harm trying even though i rarely consume them...the soup is nice!
Oh...this taste good...Benjamin & I really enjoyed this!

Laksa...Ermmmm...i don't really fancy laksa....but i still tried alittle of it!

I don't really fancy these too...too much coconut for me...

only those who loves coconut....highly recommended for them...
Not bad...

After lunch, we walked around & watched a movie, Valkerie.

I don't really like the show!

It is boring.... ...i almost fell asleep...

Our Valentine's day is really simple but nice (:

Reflection about a negative comment

Today, my lecturer said a negative comment about me that really struck me.
I was wondering and reflecting about her comments about me. Thinking really hard, i deceided to call my fiance what happened & the things that i said during break time at lecture. My fiance explained to me & i sorted it out. I finally understand why. i learn these important values:

1. Be prudent
2. Listen & Think before you speak
3. Sometimes it's better to be quiet
4. Even if a fool keeps quiet, he is deemed as wise

So now why you know the comment is negative...

In fact, i wanna thanks this lecturer of mine to tell me straightforwardly so i know what i've gone wrong. In fact, people like us need to be poked in order to grow.